It's Sunday afternoon and I am actually at home! This hasn't happened in a while. My Dad was sick this morning and he didn't come so Mom wanted to come back home in between services. I wanted to stay at church but this lady in the community died and everyone was leaving to go to the funeral home. So....now I'm here, at home, and I'm feeling really, really sad. I know I've been complaining a lot.....sorry. I don't know if anyone knows but me and Landon broke up this past Monday. (it had to be Monday! Mondays are always gross anyways) I won't go into details of why or anything but we both kinda figured it would just be temporary. I'm praying that it will be! So yeah it's been a really long, weird week. Everyone has been saying that I'm handling it really well and I think they've kinda been surprised...I don't know. I have tried to just accept it and believe that it will all work out for the good and that if its meant for us to be together we will be together. I usually do really good during the day but when I get home from school is when it all sinks in again. I guess that's because night time is the time of the day that we always talked. I always get really sad around bed time. :( lol I sound like a little kid. I don't know....it's just been hard. I know that Landon is going through a whole lot right now, which is part of the reason we broke up, and I just miss being his friend and talking to him about everything that's bothering him. I guess the thing that I'm missing most is our friendship. So if ya'll notice me blogging a lot and saying a bunch of weird things it's just because I have to let it all out. It's usually Landon that's miserable from all my stories but now it will be all ya'll! Yah for you! lol I'm sorry guys but today was just worse than others. I guess it's because a year and ten months ago today we started going together. Oh well. :( I'm almost done crying....I only have one more thing to say....More than I'm worried about us getting back together I'm worried about him and all that he's going through. I just wish sometimes that I could do away with all the bad things in life and make it all good. I know its totally impossible but I just can't stand it when I know that other people are struggling with things. :( I'll just keep doing the only thing I know to do.....pray.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
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Ok, I started crying when I read that...I loved you two together and it breaks my heart too. If I had a magic wand then I would use it for you and Landon to be happy. I hate to see you sad. You are like the sweetest girl I know and he is stupid for letting you go. One day he'll realize what he let slip thru his fingers. Honey, you can vent all you need to on here, I know how it feels to just let it out and don't worry if no one wants to read it, it's for you not them. I hope you know how much I love you and how I pray things work out for you guys. Hang in there, the sun will shine again....
Thanks Suzie ;) You're my fairy god-mother. hehe Bippity-Boppity-Boo...oh if only it was that easy.
yea really lol
aww Michaela im so sorry. but I know it will all be ok. everything will work out. love you gal! hey are u coming to Grandma's for thanksgiving?
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